well i am gay, recent college graduate, finance major, and just turn 21, i am mexican, i am also undocument in the US. in 2005 i contracted herpes from my ex which i really loved at that time, and he hurt me in a way no one else could it still hurts, i would like to keep on going to school, but i cant because i am undocument, i would love to move to another country in europe, and work my degree there and keep on going for my masters, but i dont want to leave my family behind, the first break out occured in my neck and i accidently spread it in my face, right below the eyes, i been to the doctor and i cant do anything, i dont get outbreaks only like once or twice a year and they are in the chest, i believe he also gave me genital herpes, i feel like i cant talk to no one, i cant do nothing, at times i feel dirty about myself, i feel like people arent worth it no more, and i feel like i should pursue a carrer based on the money, i do enjoy what i study, buti dont want to leave my family.
i am not out also, my family doesnt know i am gay, and if i stay here in the US, i cant work, get my license, and id, get an account, i cant do anything, if i go to another country i wont know no one, in mexico there is no relatives living there, i also dont have any friends now